feeling down today.

feeling very lousy today.

how does it feel when someone whom u tot is a friend is talking behind your back and calling u a bitch? tats how i felt today. hated it. and now i despice her. i look down on her.

and i also look down on myself for not being able to handle the situation properly.

in a sense, i've ran away from it and avoided the situation. dealing it in an unacceptable way and let it worsen. so i've no one to blame except myself too.

i just hope for a fresh start. for many things.

thanks dears. to whomever heard me bitch abt my dirty laundries out in the open.
thansk to jason whom found me in a corner of the stairwell and hear me bitch.
thanks to shihui who wanted to meet me up tat night
thanks to david who listend to me bitch, and for hte little gift.
thanks to all whom i know will support me. and tell me I"M NOT A BITCH!!!
but i admit. i'm one who does things for my own good....
and also for the good of others.